So its really been a stressful couple months. I have been so concerened about getting my boys into a school and the right one that could really serve Payton with all he needs and one that would challenge my Jaxton. For 10 months I have had all three kids home with me full time and not only was it my job to be their mother and all that comes with that I also got to be their school teacher. I really struggled with this cause I struggle just like payton with retaining info so I constantly was doubting weither I was serving them or not . That really stressed me out. I never felt like I could get everything done and the worst part was that I got so cosummed in taking care of the kids and my husband I let go of taking care of myself. Now I know that this has been a struggle for me my whole life. I have always felt it was more important to do for others than it was to do for myself. I can tell you that more than ever I know that really doesn't work. I have to take time to take care of myself and do some things I would love to do or I just go to a place of overwhelm really quick cause not only am I crazy busy with all that I am trying to do for others my body starts shuting down cause I am not taking care of myself. So about three weeks ago I had some good friends remind me not to choose overwhelm. I really understood what they were saying so I decided I was going to really work on it. I had to make a consious effort all day for a couple days to start shifting from there. As soon as I started shifting my life started shifting. Both my boys got excepted to Ogden Preportary Academy. This is the school we really wanted them to get into. We have a really good friend that works there and really bonded with Payton and I just knew that if he was somewhere were someone got how special he was that teachers and students would start treating him with the respect he so freely gives out. Not only does Karole Pickett love my Payton she loves my Jaxton. Her son Jason is Jaxton's dance teacher and is an amazing rolemodel for my kids. Jason is a 17 yr old boy that is going to collage full time and will have his associates degree two months before his highschool diploma. Talk about a great kid. The week the boys started school I felt myself start slipping to overwhelm again cause I was never home between driving to ogden everyday twice a day and football for Payton and Dance for the other kids. I quickly reminded myself that doesn't work and shifted that night I recieved a message from Jason saying he was willing to drive my boys home a couple times a week. What a relief.
These two were so happy they got to be together at school they were both really sad when we didn't think it was going to happen. They both told me at different times that they were sad cause they weren't going to be there to protect eachother. I have such sweet boys
This school is already proving to be amazing. Little things like I didn't ever have to go in and fight for my child to get support it started immediatly. Little things like making sure his homework is correct for where he is at. And for the first time teachers that don't see Payton as a hassel. I got a phone call on Monday from Karole who went over to his school to make sure Payton was getting taken care of. She told me that Payton's Resource teacher told her that he is the most pleastent child to work with. He never says no, he is always happy and so polite. I literally cried all these people seeing Payton the way we have always seen him. Then today I am driving the boys to school and I am listening to them talk and they are discussing how cool it is that during reecess they can go the libary and read. Holy cow what has happened to my boys. I am so excited. They are excited to learn again and nothing makes me happier. Payton and Jaxton get home and are more than happy to do their homework. When they started school I went in and talked to both their teachers and I told them that I had been homeschooling them and I am not sure how much they got from me and was really hoping they werent worse off because I pulled them from public school. I got messages from both teachers saying Jaxton is testing way above grade level and Payton isn't as far behind as they were expecting. Payton resource teacher said that he is not that far behind in other subjects if we can get him to catch up with reading she thinks he will be solid. She said that most of his struggles come from that cause when you can't read you can't do any subject. You can't even write what you are thinking or the awnsers that you may know. Needless to say I am so happy. This is just some of what has shifted for us. I can't wait to share our other good news soon.
On top of all the great with school they are both doing so good with their extra activites. I feel so bleesed to have these boys in our life. They remind me all the time of all the great things this life has to offer!
